My guess is he was just playing around with the fact that he did all these things to see the beautiful Grace and didn't get to see much of her.  He certainly has a sense of humor about it.  I don't get the "disappointed soul" thing.  Is he feeling sorry for himself?  Don't see anything here to back that up.  Blogging is fun because we can express ourselves, our humor and opinions and not worry about it too much.  We have come a long way since the high priests put folks to the torch for such things.  Although their descendants sometimes try to carry on the tradition.