I'm in the same boat as you and I can't figure it out either. I think it is my life. I think if I was happier with my weight, my home life, my marriage, my status as a mother, the major stresses in my life and if I could deal with all that better going to work would actually not be as daunting as it is for me. I think I've also taught myself bad habits of giving up easily, having symptoms of instant gratification and I'll never find what I'm looking for. There is no perfect boss or job and you usually don't get them at the same time if you find them. So, I know how you feel and I don't have a 100% answer but I'd say at least for me it is a reflection of my life and I do feel I bring it to work more than I ever should. Good luck on your journey either way for you and I hope you find the answer you're looking for.