Hey Bro I wanted to write you a message based on some information I recieved recently from Zuwani. He let a select few of us know that you are going through some dark times and I wanted to share my thoughts on life with you. I know that in no way do we know one another and we have no understanding of what life has been like for each of us. I do believe I have found some universal truths that you can take to heart or can dismiss as another person out there trying to find happiness and truth. First off let me say that I believe life comes in fazes, sometimes we dont always like the faze that we are in we can find it depressing, revolting and misserable to go through. Some times these fazes are situations that we have put ourselves in and sometimes they are enironmental. Either way durring the bad times we need to appreciate life and the experiences that we are having durring these times. If you are patient enough to take a deep breath and let the faze of life pass you will now find yourself in a whole no scenario new people around you, perhaps a different area you are living in new hobbies new life focus etc. Its almost like a reset button where we get to experience all new things. 
Second when i found my self at the darkest moments in my own life I was fortunate enough to find a desire deep within to figure out what life was really about (why am i here what purpose does the average person have on earth etc.) Through this thought process I found peace hope and meaning for my life which I will now share with you. 
I will not be able to go into great detail because the message would be way to long on my rational behind some of this stuff but I will give you my number if you ever want to have a serious talk about it. What changed my faze in life was comming to the understanding that life had to have purpose. There is no way that something so complicated as the earth, its orbits, the ability for life and all the veriations of creatures plants rocks etc to have been designed without a creator. With this in mind if their was a God why did he create us. At this point I did a lot of reaserch on religions and came to the conclusion through prayer to this God that evey religion pointed at the reason for our creation was a personal relationship with God. Meaning we will only feel whole when we are doing the things that God intended for us to do and to do this we need to become right with him. Christianity is the only major religion out their that I know of that does not expect you to be perfect. God said that if we want to go to heaven and be right with him we needed to admit that we have done bad things in our lives and ask for his forgiveness. God will forgive us only on one term that a sacrifice is made (basiclly we cant be in the presence of God or be one with him if we are imperfect because he is). This sacrifice is not something that we can make because we are unpure because of our sins. So he sent Jesus Christ his son to die in our stead. It is said that whoever accepts this sacrifice and admits that he has sined against God and Man that he will find forgiveness from God. At this point we will still may not be perfect here on earth but the blood that Jesus shead for you and for me was enough to counteract all our sins we have ever commited or ever will commit. Thouse that except the forgivness of God then are considered sons and daughters of God and a new life is born. I found that I had a whole in my heart with something missing once I found God and let him come in, it completed me and I got to move on to a new faze of understanding in my life. Sure the scenarios around me were the same but now my purpose was to learn about this living God who loved me enough to send his son to die in my place so that i could have a chance at a happier life on earth and everlasting life.
I know that this is not an email you expected but I hope that you think on it hard because if you do choose to ask for forgiveness through this loving God and allow him to teach you about the meaning of your life which is to love god and love the people around you that you will find that the gift of life is a wonderfull thing and that you have so much to offer others especially thouse that are going though dark times like you have.

I know that typing messages sometimes can be a hard way to communicate but I only do it because I care about you and everyone else here in FSE not because i know you or would even get along with you but because I know that God created you with something specific in mind and that if he loves you I should care about you also. I will never approach you on this again and will not mention it to anyone else if you want go ahead and message me in game or call me at home 360-723-5061

Bryce
PS if im am off the ball please dont let this email Annoy you and just disregard it just take it as from a message from one imperfect person to another trying to help