<p>I waste time every day and I don’t know why.</p>

<p>What am I so afraid of?&#0160; What do I keep putting off?&#0160; What am I afraid of accomplishing?&#0160; </p>

<p>It’s not like I set out to waste time; it simply slips away.&#0160; I have no respect for it.&#0160; I always thought that given free time I would fill it well.&#0160; When my days were busy working for others I had so many ideas and plans for how I would fill MY time when it finally became mine.&#0160; Now that my time is mostly my own, I have found that what I’m best at is wasting time.&#0160; I don’t know what to do with it.&#0160; Time scares me.&#0160; I tell myself I’m a perfectionist, but the more I try to spend my time perfectly, the quicker the minutes tick away into nothing.</p>

<p>My master procrastination skills are a big part of the problem.&#0160; I’ve read that the reason so many of us procrastinate is that we’re adrenaline junkies--that we’re addicted to the rush of accomplishing things at the last minute.&#0160; Because deadlines drive us only when they loom large.&#0160; So instead of doing things we procrastinate.&#0160; And if you think about it, procrastination is nothing more than waiting.&#0160; </p>

<p>I hate waiting.&#0160; </p>

<p>I hate waiting in lines, I have waiting on the phone, I hate waiting for food to heat up in the microwave.&#0160; Yet I procrastinate like a champ.&#0160; It makes no sense.&#0160; </p>

<p>To think of all the amazing things that can be accomplished in a day, an hour, a minute.&#0160; Instead I put it off.&#0160; And what do I have to show for it?&#0160; Nothing. </p>

<p>You know that dreadful feeling on Sunday afternoons when you realize that you don’t know where the weekend went?&#0160; Those precious two days you spent all week waiting for?&#0160; Gone.</p>

<p>I’m starting to feel that way all week.&#0160; That is scary.</p>

<p>I’ve got to stop waiting.&#0160; I’ve got to start right now.&#0160; Be in this moment.&#0160; Savor it.&#0160; Touch it.&#0160; Feel it.&#0160; Live it.</p>

<p>Because the days, they go by so fast.&#0160; </p>
