Cancer almost took my life in 2000, alot of poor women who have no money or insurance don't get to the doctor so they don't get the proper screenings that they need. I was one of them women. By the time I found out I had Cancer it was too late.. I had to endure a six hour surgery..Anyway it's been six years and I have no Cancer, thank God and I just wanted you to know that their is life after Cancer eventhough, I do understand your feelings, its scary. Keep promoting the vaccine, it's important. Here's a poem from my book.

Cracks in my walls

I asked Jenny to watch my kids
that day.
I didn't want them to know that
Their Mother
Their strength,
was falling apart quickly
like pieces of the Berlin Wall.

After all,

I didn't want them to see
my sadness
my pain,
the worry lines in my face.
Cancer had moved into
my life
my house,

my space.

I left the hospital
with the news
and the blues,
singing my own
sorry ass song...
all along
Colfax Avenue
On bus #15,
I had to ride
and I cried
and I cried,
then denied

the sickness,
till I
felt sicker.

It was raining,
raining hard
I thought my God had shed a tear
for all my fear

"Lord! I'm not ready to go yet!"
I said

That day
I cried so many tears
my body,
my heart,
my spirit
nearly broke.

And if you spoke or came
too close
you could see the cracks in my walls.

I'm still working on repairs..

© 2005 Green Eyes Open
