<p>I&#39;m pretty sure we&#39;re done having kids. </p><p>(I would say I&#39;m 100% sure, but if there&#39;s one thing I know is that when I make absolute statements like that it&#39;s a sure-fire way for me to get pregnant. So to be safe, I knock my level of confidence on this a bit. But yeah, I think three boys feels just about right.)</p><p>When you make a decision like this it&#39;s like the proverbial butterfly fluttering its wings on the other side of the world, where a small event has ever growing consequences -- some tiny, some life-encompassing. </p><p>I will not be talking about the big consequences of this decision here -- instead I want to tell you about what it&#39;s done to my wardrobe.</p><p>Friends, after five years of carrying, birthing, and nursing babies it&#39;s come to this: I have nothing to wear. </p><p>I know...there are some of you out there who&#39;ve never had children, have closets full to bursting with clothes and you still have nothing to wear. I KNOW. I don&#39;t think I&#39;ve ever had anything to wear in my entire life. Is it ever enough? Of course not.</p><p>But this...state... that I&#39;m in? It&#39;s something else entirely. The last time I went on a real shopping spree was five years ago. I tend to stay away from super trendy clothes, so it&#39;s not like I&#39;m bemoaning all the things I didn&#39;t get to wear while I was pregnant. No, it&#39;s not that at all. </p><p>I&#39;ve been pretty good about donating things I don&#39;t wear anymore. So my closet is extremely edited already. What has survived my frequent closet cleanups is perfectly reasonable and some of it is quite nice -- if a bit ill-fitting, as I am not back in pre-pregnancy form yet. No. The problem is that my closet is a bit of time capsule. The clothes in it just don&#39;t feel like me anymore. </p><p>Whenever I look for something to wear, I feel like I&#39;m looking through someone else&#39;s clothes. Very frustrating. But it makes sense -- I&#39;m not the same woman today that I was five years ago.</p><p>But the worst part is, I don&#39;t know what it is I want to wear today, and tomorrow, and the day after that. I don&#39;t know what my personal sense of style is anymore. It&#39;s item #5 on <a href="http://www.everydaytreats.com/my-life-list.html" target="_blank">the Life List</a> (&quot;define my personal sense of style&quot;), but at this point it seems as impossible to achieve as selling an article to Vanity Fair. </p>
