I'm so sorry lady. My dad is always getting paddled for his ongoing and horrible heart problems, and it's so F*CKING HARD. And that's not even a fraction as hard as this. Punch walls when you need to. Cry. Invest in some serious... baked goods with real sugar? Is that wrong? I think not so much at a time like this! All hail the oatmeal cookie! And be nice to yourself for all of us. Huge hugs.
