Also, I'd never think it was funny you talking about these experiences in the way you do. It's strange, but most of us have experienced crises during our teens. At the age of 15, I was suicidal for a long period when someone I was very close to died. You seem to have had a very rough time though. You are also evidently intelligent, judging by your list of ratings. Anyone who disliked About a Boy gets my vote.