Tomorrow must be better.  I&#039;ve been a little out of sorts for the last few hours... Steve was mowing the back yard this afternoon and he hollered at me.   I guess he felt really dizzy and then ran into a potted cactus I have.  I hope I got them all out of his leg and I got him a power aid out of the fridge.  He was fine.... we kept hearing a little girl next door (in the back yard) and I thought to myself...I&#039;ve got to stop thinking every little girl I hear sounds just like Layla.  Steve was trying to tell me it WAS Layla (my nearly 4/yo granddaughter)&#33;  I guess that is what made him dizzy.  I couldn&#039;t believe it...I spied and it was true.  I saw her myself.  Steph (my daughter) told us she was cleaning herself up but she has Layla next door with people who she partied with when she stayed with us last?  It means everything she told Steve was a lie and she is still hanging around with the bad influence drug friends of hers.   I think what is worse is Layla didn&#039;t say anything but just continued to play by herself and periodically go inside even after I know she must have heard us in the back yard.  I think she&#039;s forgotten us.  I was grilling and we weren&#039;t exactly being really quiet.  I don&#039;t understand why Steph can&#039;t grow up and has this incessant need to hurt us.  At least I got to see my granddaughter if from a small distance...she looked good.  We are wondering if they are babysitting her which is crazy but possible.  We do not know if Stephanie was there or not.  If we see Layla there again I know Steve is going to try to talk to her over the fence.  I just want to back away and go hide in bed under the covers.  I just can&#039;t take it any more and would rather distance myself then live with this constant reminder in my face of the daughter who refuses to get off drugs and the granddaughter she uses as a pawn.  I&#039;m too upset over it to even breathe and realize what is right to feel or wrong to feel.  It was just weird.  <br /><br />Sorry about the rant.  Just needed to get it off my chest.