Jim, <br />As a parent I have felt I wasn&#039;t the best many times during many situations.<br />I could have done this or that differently. I also have learned we all do the best with the knowledge we have at the moment, and as a parent of a son who challenged me the best he could many times. I can tell you none of that matters I love him and even during the diffucult times I just loved him more.  You are the best and most loved son your Mother had and she never lost faith in you or her love never changed for you no matter what .