Riding the TTC roller-coaster every month can get very exhausting, depressing and very frustrating.   The first two weeks are spent turning the let-down from the previous month into cautious optimism around the time of ovulation and then thinking maybe this month? Could it be?  Is that some tenderness in my<a href="http://www.circlebloom.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/09/Lion_roaring.jpg"><img class="alignleft size-medium wp-image-1460" title="Lion_roaring" src="http://www.circlebloom.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/09/Lion_roaring-231x300.jpg" alt="Lion_roaring" width="231" height="300" /></a> breast?  And then, the let-down all over again.

Where do we put all of this energy?  It's got to go somewhere, so does it stay locked up inside rattling around like a caged animal?  If it stays inside what kind of pressure is it putting on our bodily functions?  I believe strongly that we have a choice here - and the choice needs to be to LET IT OUT.

Release of this pent-up anger.  As Candace Pert Ph.D. explains "I believe that all emotions are healthy, because emotions are what unite the mind and the body.  Negative emotions are just as healthy as positive."  When we deny or do not express our negative emotions and they do not run its course, causing stress in the system to build that could create harmful blockages.

Here are some ideas to let it all out:
<ol>
	<li>Pay attention to your thoughts - don't judge, just listen.  When we start to be conscious and aware of our thought patterns, a shift automatically begins to happen.  Become aware.  The easiest way to do that is to try to stay in the present moment.</li>
	<li>Talk with trusted friends or family members.  Call it a bitch session.  You may even want to tell your friend to just listen and not talk.  Let it out.  Yell, scream, cry - even if you don't make any sense.   Do it for YOURSELF.</li>
	<li>Keep a journal / blog.  This has been a life-changer for me personally.  Very similar to number 1 above, when you start journaling and recording your thoughts, you become to become more and more aware of them and therefore more in control of them.  I don't have any rules around my journal - I just write what I feel like writing, when I feel like writing.  If you want to be more public with your feelings then start a blog - and let us know when you do because we'd love to follow it.</li>
	<li>Conscious breathing.  It is said that the easiest way to the present moment - where there really are no problems you can't deal with - is to start to become consicously aware of your breathing.  This can be the start of deep relaxation and mediation as well - which is what we do in our Circle + Bloom program.  Becoming more aware of your body allows you to become more aware of your mind and thoughts.</li>
	<li>Visualization of the anger and then letting it go.</li>
	<li>Drawing, sketching, creating something while focusing on the frusteration.</li>
	<li>Loud music, yelling at the top of your lungs.</li>
	<li>Guided visualization and deep relaxation.</li>
	<li>Exercise</li>
	<li>Join a support group</li>
</ol>
Sometimes the biggest impetus to healing can come from jump-starting the immune system with a burst of long-suppressed anger.  How and where is up to you."  Frued described depression as anger redirected against oneself.

Above all, let yourself experience it.  Don't deny it. Move it around and then let it go.

Photo CC credit:  <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/30775272@N05/">Brimac the 2nd</a>